c'est la ville

dont give up on love. have faith. restart.

2007-07-13T23:05:01Z

the ex talked to me yesterday. it broke my heart a little to feel what two years down the drain is.

the past is well in the past. so who is going to build a future with me? who is going to marry me? have my kids?
who knows. i guess thats what is the most troubling thing.

men are horrible. harry potter tonight? hopefully.

run with me... anyone

2007-07-12T04:52:44Z

He never called.

His phone is off.
I thought he got here today or YESTERDAY.

This kinda sucks. On the otherhand I went MAJOR shopping :)

ur_best_bet @ 2007-07-11T02:00:00

2007-07-11T06:01:25Z

Holiday. n/v :British for vacation. I guess I was on Holiday all day yesterday, it was well… lovely. Now that I'm back into reality and away from Prince Charming I remember the hassle life is.

Today, literally speaking, a boy should be calling me the second he plugs his phone into the charger and gets signal… only to receive about a million text from me. He better call. And if he does well then the soap opera will get even better. Two guys. What's new. It's either none or all. Never an in between. I hate how drastic some things can be.

Single. Let's try to keep it that way. At least for my GPA's sake.

So he calls. Then what? Prince Charming wants to sweep me away to England which sounds well… lovely! But is that realistic, I feel the boy who better call is a more realistic approach. Then again if I'm single now, shouldn't that be telling me that I'm not too great with choices in relationships? If I were so smart at choosing I should be with the man I'm supposed to marry

Unless I haven't met him yet

Or worse, given him a chance.

back from the city that never sleeps

2007-07-06T20:26:29Z

this year has been a little crazy. i started the year without a boyfriend, one that i had for almost two years. then i did some rebound dating. nothing great just a couple mess ups but messing up is what teaches us lessons so im not complaining. my mom has gotten better i visited my cousins and finally stayed with my dad for the first time in 5 years.

school ended a little rough the tough times took a toll on my semester. in the end i passed, didnt lose my scholarship and decided to take more classes during the summer. i did that ended 2 really important friendships that on the other end wanted to be more than just that. as of now i just got from new york, had the time of my life and im missing someone a little bit. maybe hell turn into someone special who knows.

my last night in nike

2006-08-05T02:19:28Z

So officially I am done with my first semester at college.
I think I did awesome. Hopefully two A's which is what I worked hard for.

It's been a bumpy summer but amazing nonetheless.
Tomorrow I move out & then into my new apartment I go.

I can't wait. I'll be going home soon and seeing some people I've truly missed.
Tomorrow Jenny and Mary are coming to visit. We're having a super sleepover/pregame party

♥

ur_best_bet @ 2006-07-27T11:18:00

2006-07-27T15:18:53Z

whatever i went to the gym and im happy thats all that counts

ouch

2006-07-26T19:02:14Z

man the truth hurts. but sometimes i feel like im not thinking realistically.

anyway. i feel like shit today i mean one thing right after another. and i dont feel like getting comments oh cata youre a pretty girl blah blah

I LOOK LIKE SHIT I LOOK DISGUSTING AND I HATE IT.

im going on a no meat diet. the end i want to be skinny and gorgeous and have long brown pretty hair.

JGOIWEGOJSFFSJFSJLKDALNKFDSLKKNJ

im a little crazy

2006-07-25T20:26:03Z

when im drunk i go home and cut my bangs and write stuff that i dont even know what im talking about.

god help me i should hide my scissors.

not so awesome

2006-07-21T20:41:45Z

so a few minutes ago i was so happy dreaming about getting a puppy and naming her sunshine and calling her sunny.

then i myspace whored and well. i wish i was tall and i wish i was a model and gorgeous and had a portfolio full of gorgeous pictures. all of the sudden i feel crappy.

songs bring me life

2006-07-20T00:05:37Z

she said "i've gotta be honest,
you're wasteing your time if you're fishing round here."
and i said "you must be mistaken,
cause i'm not fooling...this feeling is real"
she said...she said "you gotta be crazy,
What do you take me for? Some kind of easy mark?
"No, you've got wits, you've got looks,
you've got passion, but I swear that you've got me all wrong."

all wrong.
all wrong.
but you got me...

i'll be true, i'll be useful...
i'll be cavalier...i'll be yours my dear.
and i'll belong to you...
if you'll just let me through.
this is easy as lovers go,
so don't complicate it by hesitating.
and this is wonderful as loving goes,
this is tailor-made, whats the sense in waiting?

and i said "i've gotta be honest
i've been waiting for you all my life."
for so long i thought i was asylum bound,
but just seeing you makes me think twice.
and being with you here makes me sane,
i fear i'll go crazy if you leave my side.
you've got wits...you've got looks,
you've got passion but are you brave enough to leave with me tonight?

tonight.
tonight.
but you've got me...

i'll be true, i'll be useful...
i'll be cavalier...i'll be yours my dear.
and i'll belong to you...
if you'll just let me through.
this is easy as lovers go,
so don't complicate it by hesitating.
and this is wonderful as loving goes,
this is tailor-made, whats the sense in waiting?
this is easy as lovers go,
so don't complicate it by hesitating.
and this is wonderful as loving goes,
this is tailor-made, whats the sense in waiting?

I love just sitting in my room talking to my friends, watching sex & the city, reading a good book, and listening to music that makes me feel alive inside.

ur_best_bet @ 2006-07-18T20:40:00

2006-07-19T00:44:36Z

So I don't know if I've written about this, but I'm an advertising public relations major. At UCF it's a pending major, meaning I have to apply to get in. So pretty much every semester from my first year on I can apply. They take the top 40 of all the students that applied based on GPA. Thats 40 students every semester.

So pretty much I want a 4.0 this first year of college, or at least a 3.7

I have an 86 in my Sociology class, we have 4 tests and 4 essays and extra credit if we ask for it and 10 points with pre and post tests for some woman.

Then my Human Species class we have 2 tests. That's it.

So I did my mid-term, and studied my ass of, and guess what. I GOT A MOTHERFUCKING 98. Out of 50 i got a 49. I feel so proud of myself.

I HONESTLY WANT A 4.0. I want to make a deal with my dad, like if I get a 4.0 my first year that I get a new car or something. We'll see but for now my goal with this 4.0 is to get in my major and kick ass.

:)
PS I have ANOTHER test tomorrow UGH

i have mixed emotions

2006-07-17T00:40:15Z

sometimes i love it here other times i hate it

its like i love living this life of classes and my own apartment and doing whatever i want

but then its like do i really get to do whatever i want. i also live this life of feeling like shit, fighting a lot and sometimes HAVING TOO MUCH FUN.

what the fuck. right now i fucking hate everyone because of one idiot who needs to rethink what he does and what he does to me. right now i wish i was home and didnt have anyone but myself to worry about.

i want to buy a puppy, a really cute one.

BRAND NEW TICKETS IN ORLANDO FOR THURSDAY

2006-06-28T14:31:04Z

I'm selling my ticket for Brand New Thursday night at House of Blues

It cost me like 25.00 with all the online bullshit

Please help me out m unable to go because my mom is having open heart surgery tomorrow morning.

I'd love to go but unfortunately I can't so buy the ticket from me and I will love you forever.

Call me up 954 604 8191

I hate this shit

2006-06-24T16:23:32Z

I'm having fun

I just wish some people would take some incentive to see me

This summer is going to be good

2006-06-22T03:45:16Z

So, this might be funny to hear but...

I visited the Health Center already because of the pain and swelling in my knee. Turns out I have fluid in my knee and they gave me crutches because I cannot put any weight on it :(

I am officialy a cripple, my first week into college. Awesome! I haven't even gone out because of this damn knee.

My roommate is so nice, I really like her. Dave and I made dinner and so far (minus the knee sitch) I love it here!

PS...... CONVINCE NICOLETTE RODRIGUEZ TO DRIVE HERSELF NATALIE AND VIVIAN ON SATURDAY TO VISIT ME!

Home sweet home

2006-06-20T05:13:03Z

Well, I moved in yesterday. It was quite eventful; it was pouring the entire time we moved in.

1. My arm is sore from yesterday's events (which are hilarious)
2. My knee hurts from jumping off my super high bed
3. My ankle is swolen from walking 12 hours straight

So yesterday my Dad and I moved everything by taking everything in my Mom's wheel chair it was quite funny.

My room look sooo pretty, I like it here.

CANNOT WAIT TO DO MY CLASSES TOMORROW AND PARTY THE NIGHT AWAY
(so sad about having my parents leave me!!!!!)

ur_best_bet @ 2006-06-15T19:30:00

2006-06-15T23:32:28Z

I cannot write one thing without getting some lame anonymous comment.

Tonight the Heat are going to winnnnnnnnnn! :)
& I've been packing up my entire closet all day

I don't want to move yet :(

YEAHH HEAT!!!!!!

2006-06-14T06:56:04Z

Clarification

2006-06-14T03:13:11Z

The last entry I wrote or say posted pictures in is explained by this:

That dress is Nicolette's first communion dress, when were 7 years old.

I tried it on and well I kinda look like the girl from Beetlejuice and we thought we could poke fun at when we did our first communion and the stupid poses they made us do.

If you didn't already know I'm Nicolette's hero on her myspace, so go check that picture out.

Ummmmmm... I hope everyone enjoyed my second First Communion as much and Nic and I did because honestly I was hysterical.

I move 4 days :(

My First Communion

2006-06-12T22:39:25Z

You make this seem easy

2006-06-12T18:40:37Z

I re-did the layout.

My life is a little hectic, i mean a lot hectic.

Umm... I'm moving in 5 days, don't know how I feel about that.

I hope no one reads this

So I have amazing news

2005-12-10T23:46:39Z

Today I took my mom out of the house, she needed a break from house arrest so we went to TeaCups...

We fell in love with the most gorgeous boy he is tiny and when I say tiny you won't understand til you see him, he's smaller than Brady and adorable.

Needless to say my mom's best friend bought him for my mom as a christmas present, so awesome on Wednesday or Thursday Cooper is coming home to us. I'll put up pictures soon!

I'm going to visit him tomorrow, the place is amazing they want us to go visit him so he knows were his new family! :) And they started calling him Cooper so he knows his new name!

But yeah I love all my other dogs and I can't help but feel sad because I feel like I'm replacing them, and I'm not.. It's just new puppy time again.

And he is going to last us years upon years. I'll update with pictures soon!!

ur_best_bet @ 2005-12-06T22:35:00

2005-12-07T03:36:29Z

im not gona lie i feel like shit and the only person that i can ever truly spill out these feelings to is 200 miles away.

i wish my life was normal. why does god do this?

this week on best week ever

2005-12-03T01:21:55Z

+ I get a tattoo

It hurt: 1) because im a baby 2) because the fucking spot i choose

+ I get accepted to UCF

They accept me and then ask for $200, man theyre quick

I should definatly make the best week ever on vh1

i love him

2005-11-14T04:05:04Z

david michael mayo equals my life. he is amazing. a weekend with him makes me more than happy. too bad people still cant get over themselves. this week weve been together for 9 months. and i am thankful for that. i cannot wait until i live in orlando. then we can play all the time. yay. we play, not dirty you weirdos, but fun. and i like playing.

i wonder how i live when hes not around. i feel so sucky.